CNN: Death Grip: Inside the World of Pro Wrestling

I'm really torn up here. Part of me wants to watch this thing because I feel I owe you, my readers, my view on the situation from CNN's perspective. But part of me has no desire to watch it. I will comment on one thing that I've read from various recaps, and that's John Cena's answer to the question, "Have you ever taken steroids?"

"I can't say that I haven't, and you can't prove I ever have."

Let that sit there for a minute.

Here's the best way that it was described in various reports I read...

"John Cena pulls a Mark McGwire.."

Look, I'm not going to go in to the whole right/wrong thing on this, and I'm not going to try and defend anyone who may have made a wrong choice. But, to waffle on an answer like this in the public eye, when you have basically the weight of the entire WWE resting on your shoulders...

it's troubling as hell.

I said when the whole steroid thing had come out that if Cena's name was amongst the list of alleged users, I would be devastated. While his name is not on the list, this answer takes the gold value that I have been saying for months on end away from him.

Credibility.

Will the world remember this? Probably not. Will I? Yes. I will.

I don't think a situation like this requires a grey answer. It should have been black or white. Whether it was positive or negative, WWE could have handled it within its ranks, put on the appropriate public facade, and moved on. Now, with this grey answer, it leaves speculation and wondering for the media, and the fans of the product, that its #1 moneymaker may have not been following policy.

I am guessing that WWE thinks with Cena out of action that this type of situation will eventually die down before his return, and there'll be little or no collateral damage because of it.

I hope they're right, but from my sense, I doubt it.

I'm sad. I'm disappointed. And I'm torn. I don't know how to feel or what to say.

I'm also sick to death of all the negativity that surrounds the world we live in. I think it seeps in to my work, in to my life, and I feel like it's a black cloud that nobody can escape from. Here's a good analogy. The movie coming out from Stephen King, "The Mist". I feel like the world is surrounded by a mist of negative emotions and vibes, and that anyone who steps in to it is doomed to an eventual slow painful and dehabilitating existence of pain and anguish.

And frankly, I'm sick of it. I got in to pro wrestling to try and get away from that cloud, if even for a little while, and, although I've tried for months on end, it seems to be slowly seeping in to my enjoyment time and I can't stand it.

Wow. that was deep. But needed. I'm gonna split now, I think I've said enough.